Side B – Half a Year

There she goes in front of me
Take my life and set me free again
We’ll make a memory out of it
Holy road is at my back
Don’t look on, take me back again
We’ll make a memory out of it

We finally fall apart and we break each other’s hearts
If we wanna live young, love, we better start today

It’s gotta get easier, oh easier somehow
‘Cause I’m falling, I’m falling
Oh easier and easier somehow
Oh I’m calling, I’m calling
And it isn’t over, unless it is over
I don’t wanna wait for that
It’s gotta get easier and easier somehow
But not today
Not today

– Imagine Dragons –

It’s been half a year you’ve left me for someone else, Seika. It should be getting easier somehow, but it isn’t. It’s only getting harder to hold myself together.

This is one of those times I try not to blame you for anything but everything that comes out of my mouth are accusations, so I’m trying real hard here not to blame you for anything.

It’s been half a year and I still can’t understand how someone can leave someone else in a snap of a finger and be with someone else practically the next minute. It must be easier for you to do this. I just can’t, my heart wouldn’t allow me to hurt someone this way.

The worst part of it all is that I know I’m the only one who still has some memory of our relationship. Because that’s the way you are, you move on like a train and simply leave all the destruction behind without caring about the consequences. And in our case the consequences are too big for you to handle and also you can’t pull the breaks anymore.

Don’t look away, picture my face, picture me in front of you as you read through all these texts because I want you to know what you really have caused. It’s gonna get easier to live with the idea I’ve killed myself and you had the biggest part on it, but it’s gonna get easier, it’s gonna get easier somehow, but not today.

You were once my angel, today you’re my demon. The one who’s gonna get me away from this world. Once there was an angel, but this angel has fallen.

Yeah, half a year is such a long time.

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